Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Go to Jackson to Climb-Walk away with a Job!!

TETON PARK

First Morning up around Moran

Blacktail Butte Wall
Jackson Lake
Jan came to camp with us for a night and climb our little WY hearts out before riding his motorcycle down to see his mom in Park City then head back to Big SkySignal Mtn Lodge drinking Margaritas after Blacktail Butte WallRodeo Wall-Sunday Morn with JanShield Wall-Sunday Afternoon-just JD and I
Driving to CampSunset from our camp that night

MORE TO COME!


So JD and I went to Jackson for a mini vacation and of course another scope trip. I had a few interviews to push through, then climb climb climb some rock rock rock. Didn't expect too much from the job front-I wasn't worried this time around-I knew I would walk away with a job. What I didn't anticipate was that I would walk away with some amazing offers, having to weigh my options and pick one. As well as being offered one of the most amazing opportunities that just seemed to fall into my lap. Before we left Big Sky, I had emailed my resume to some restaurants to grab a quick waitress job to make rent until I found the real deal, but I guess one restaurant in particular saw something more than just your average "can I take your order-girl" in me! I sat down to breakfast with the owner on Saturday morning not knowing what to expect and also not too interested. But then she offered me the FOH Mgr/HR/Event Coordinator position for the Cadillac Grille. Ummm-exqueeze me!!!! Did I just hear you offer-my dream job? Yah. So I slept on it until Monday before I had breakfast with the other owners to discuss details and thought about...well everything in my life past and present-decisions I have made in the past, directions I could have taken and what was in front of me now! It became a no brainer-wow I must be growing up-because I feel like I have had amazing opportunities slap me in the face before and I had always taken the "ski bum" route and picked the easier option B with less responsibility and more play time. Don't know how or when it happened-but this option didn't seem like much of a sacrifice-its what I want to do, makes me happy and I will still get to play from time to time-oh yeah and I will make some major buck while I'm at it! Have my priorities changed or did I just become an adult? Ok, I may be an adult-but I refuse to ever grow up!

Fullmoon Climbing









JD had the great idea of climbing under the fool moon, so we tried to conjure up as many folks that were as crazy as us for the adventure...but everyone thought we were too radical for Big Sky-except for Jan (the human climbing spider monkey)! We headed for good ole red cliff and thought that the short 5.7/5.8 wall would be smart to start with since we hadn't climbed in the dark. We each lead the wall and messed around-obviously wanting more! Mmmmm, to the left the next wall is -our fav 5.10 "overhang". Yup-The boys got stoked on who was going to lead it and "giddy like a school boy" JD won it over. Not too many pics of the lead climb-since I didn't want to blind the climber with the flash. I will add a few more pics when I get the chance.


Sunday, August 26, 2007

My New Wheels!!



Yes folks-I'm 26 and I have a brand new car!!! I would never have thought this could happen to me-I feel very fortunate considering my Mom finally got her first brand new car when I was finishing college! Have times and the economy changed that much? It's an exponential jump-but I'm not complaining. Haven't named her yet-need to put a few more adventures on her before I can. She's purty and I love her!!! More pics of her to come!

Sunday, August 5, 2007

Mr. Cash says it as it is-"I'm going to Jackson"





Oh my, I can't remember the last time I did a scope out mission for a new location of residence, but here you have it-Jackson, WY is where it's at for me. I can't believe it took me so long to find this town. It's everything I wanted, needed, and more. I can't believe I absorbed all that crap that everyone has been feeding me about it being overrated!! I took Howie for illusional protection, and entertainment! We headed out on Saturday morning and hit Jackson to get some lunch at Sweetwater To Go with a newspaper to picnic in the park. After that we headed into Teton National Park towards Moran. Hiked up to look at some climbing walls, talked to some girls that were climbing, then took the back way to Teton Village. Howie and I walked around the Village and did some resume stuff! We ran into town again and I grabbed a few rolls of sushi and sake, walked around town, grabbed some beers and headed to camp. I set up tent during a small hurricane! It settled, I drank my beer and read my book, while Howie chewed his stick. Then I grabbed my beer and Howie and I walked around to catch the sunset. Headed to bed in the tent and fell asleep with Howie snuggled up to me with my head lamp on and reading my book! That tent is amazing with just one person! I don't know how Sky, Howie and I survived living in that tent for a week while scoping MT, and then another week after we moved to MT while looking for a place to live! I woke up and realized that I missed the sunrise, so there was really no reason to get up so Howie and I slept in until 9:30 am! We got up and ran into town to do the Internet resume thing, then dropped some resumes off, and drove around to say a "fake" farewell to Jackson (since I'm coming back!) and took off. We headed up the Teton Pass. On the way, I saw a trail head and thought a good hike to wear Howie and myself out before heading back would be sweet. So we headed up to ski lake trail. At the top after my last photo-we heard a huge strike of thunder followed by some rain which let me know that it was time to go! We jogged the way down and drove home!! Just getting half way home, I could feel the heavy load on my shoulders grow. While in Jackson, I didn't have a care in the world-a constant smile! But as soon as I got past Ashton I felt instantly depressed and constantly thinking about what was inedibly in Big Sky for me to deal with, how to get out etc etc etc. The burdening thoughts just kept piling up until I had to regroup before I had an anxiety attack! AHHHH! I don't know what to do! Stupid to say, because I know what I want to do-getting there has a million options! Only time will tell.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

My Horoscope today

Just wanted to thank my mom for her canadian horoscope-I posted it on my facebook account!!!

But this is what it had to say today:
"You may attempt to put your feelings back inside the container from which they have escaped. Even if you begin to get things under control, something happens and the feelings get out once again. Perhaps you needn't struggle about hiding your emotions. Instead, accept them as messages from your subconscious mind while remembering that you don't have to act on them."

God-there good sometimes-even if is extremely general-damn right on the money!

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Climbing with the crew







Jan, Alexis, Courtney, Heidi, Steph, Jolene, Emily and I went out for a Saturday climb. We set up 4 walls and blasted some tunes. Howie chased a snake and fell asleep in the dirt with the rest of the old doggies! Good Times! Later that night we had a festiv Costa Rican dinner party at Em's house-amazing food, some bean bag tossing competition and maybe too many tequila shots! I attempted a dish with sole-and the recipe that Jolene gave me was beyond my capabilities to create-so I americanized the dish a bit-and I'd have to say for not being able to follow directions very well, it was mighty tasty!
As for me-not doing well-but it will get better with every day

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Well another day another chapter in my life




Ok-here it is-another day another mood. For awhile now I have been sick of being up and down up and down, and apparently the man I fell for felt the same way. I had no idea, I pretended to think he was the rock that I could depend on. He let out this forte of "I'm ok, nothing bothers me". So what did I do to abuse that...pushed him to his limits. Limits reached, people lost! It's been raining since yesterday-just what this town needed-exactly what my body feels-dark, low, and crying constantly. Saturation is sometimes necassary and always filling and unfulfilling simutanisly! I think its kinda comforting and funny that my roomate in empathy of the situation, gave me a self help book! God what has my life come to? I know I'm moving forward-but I feel myself going crazy thinking about all my past failures. I failed again-learning along the way. When will I have learned everything I can and actually feel successful? Ahh, the ever progressing question.

I'm tired of hurting myself and allowing to be hurt. For some reason I felt that all relationships were a struggle. A struggle for finding that..."we can be who we are in a relationship, and allow the other person to do the same. 'Being who we are' requires that we can talk openly about things that are important to us, that we take a clear position on where we stand on important emotional issues, and that we clarify the limits of what is acceptable and tolerable to us in a relationship. 'Allowing the other person to do the same' means that we can stay emotionally connected to that other party who thinks, feels and believes differently, without needing to change, convince, or fix the other." is always past tense by the time I realize!

So where am I now? Shit-I don't even know anymore.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Caleb-in my heart forever

An old friend I went to middle/high school with-just found out he had a near death on the 4th and is in serious condition in Boston. Signs of improvement after some surguries is giving everyone a reason to smile-he is always in my mind and heart-Caleb-I know you will make it through this! LOVE YA

A website was created: www.calebpotter.blogspot.com

I've been a slacker or too busy having fun!

Sorry for the lack of posts lately fam! But I had a great 26th bday, I've been climbing almost everyday and working my butt off at my new job with Spanish Peaks! Contemplating life and all its possibilities and yet I have time to call, email and post this. I am a busy girl just trying to figure it all out. Thank you for being there for me and never giving up on me-and soon you will see some pics of my life-just know that I am workin through all the bumps in the road and still moving forward!