The view from my office! This is all I need. After moving to Vermont living
slope side, falling in love with being that high-that close to something so vast; I vowed to myself that that's the setting I would surround myself with for the rest of my life! So, what happened?! I tortured myself (in a good way) and moved to Seattle! Hell, I wouldn't be who I am now if I hadn't tried something new!! I'm just reflecting on my life from when I was on my own last-how I felt then, how I feel now. I don't want to sound like a tree hugger; but just connecting with how my (just mine) soul feels. I took a hike yesterday-same ole hike I've hiked dozens of times, but for some reason it felt different. I haven't gained any powers or anything...but I appreciated all the sounds more so than I have before! The river was rushing over rocks, the snow crunching. Just being in silence and hearing myself breath.
I read this book that my father gave me a long time back, about a man on a journey. This man told his father he was confused, so his father sent him on a voyage that had no expiration or route; his father only gave him the first bearings. He traveled all around Tibet looking for something, meeting people, talking-experiencing, staying in one place for as long as needed; contemplating/discussing/asking questions about his
uncertainty in life. He didn't know what he was looking for but every soul he encountered directed him to his next destination until he found it...Himself! At the end of the book-I was like-"that's it?!". He travels for years, decades-just to find out that what he was looking for was himself!! I get it now. Not sure where I have misplaced that book, I would love to read it again. But I guess I don't need it...I'm writing my own!
Cynthia and JD-Three Forks Ridge Hike
JD's approach to direct Three Forks
The boys of the house (John, JD and Brian)
Johnny makin pizza pies
JD trying to get his card gamin on!
JD and Johnny-two peas in a pod
Brian and Kyle
The Diz himself
A night of card games and beer at JD, Johnny and Brian's! Johnny made some delish' homemade pizza for us. Johnny has a way of always making you feel better-I hope I'm graced with his presence foreva! Cheers to my boys-Thank you.
Yeah, this was so much fun, watchin my boys make some sweet turns. First time of the season to wear a beacon and carry my probe and shovel...it's about time! Anyway, top shot of JD, and a back shot of Johnny. Since we haven't had snow fall in weeks and 50 degree sunny weather, you wouldn't think that back country would be any fun; but sometimes I like being proven wrong! Life is good when it's you and a mountain...discussin life's directions!
I just woke up this morning after a rough end to the day. I feel good-a new beginning...we will see!
OK-it hit me. I feel like I can't even go see him-for it will hurt too much. My child, I miss him. The way he would snuggle in bed. He would slowly make his way up in any nook he could thinking he was all stealth when I knew what he was doing! He would incubate me to the point I had to pull the covers off or push him over...until he would make his way back to the nook! My little sneaky boy-Missing you isn't a strong enough phrase for what I feel.
I thought this was appropriate for my frame of mind! Even the best swimmers of life need some dry time once in a while. It looks as though "I" have come ashore, but that couldn't be farther than the truth. I feel farther out at sea than ever...and it seems to be a good spot for now!
The view from my office! This is all I need. After moving to Vermont living slope side, falling in love with being that high-that close to something so vast; I vowed to myself that that's the setting I would surround myself with for the rest of my life! So, what happened?! I tortured myself (in a good way) and moved to Seattle! Hell, I wouldn't be who I am now if I hadn't tried something new!! I'm just reflecting on my life from when I was on my own last-how I felt then, how I feel now. I don't want to sound like a tree hugger; but just connecting with how my (just mine) soul feels. I took a hike yesterday-same ole hike I've hiked dozens of times, but for some reason it felt different. I haven't gained any powers or anything...but I appreciated all the sounds more so than I have before! The river was rushing over rocks, the snow crunching. Just being in silence and hearing myself breath.
